诞生
自2001年三月接触网络以来,problemer其实是我第n个id了.
那时刚刚考完GT,对前途的迷茫,对现状的不满,使我认为自己
身上有着很多的缺点,很多的不足,也有很多悬而未决的问题.
我其实很希望有一天,自己能够把自己看得清楚,能够把未来
把握在手里,能够解决现存的满身的问题.所以,这样一个id就
出世了.
成长
id的命名,原本是希望解决自身的问题的.可是后来却慢慢演
变成为解决别人问题和自己问题两个方面了.呵呵,事物总是
具有两面性的.
最开始的时候,喜欢泡classicalpoem版(当然只是缥缈的).
用mapler的话来说,我总是喜欢一个人躲在实验室的某个角落
里面,写一些不为人知的酸诗.表面上我很现实,可是骨子里却
没有一点实际的理念.我喜欢把自己武装起来,把不快乐的事
放在心里,闲暇的时候拿出来,一点一点的品尝..可是隐藏不了
的,是诗词里面那些若有若无的忧伤.我把心情,把抱负,把自我
写在我的诗词里面,我认为,真正能够看懂它们的人,才是懂我
的人.诗言志,词传情,300多个日日夜夜,融入近百首诗词里面,
现在每每看到它们,都能够忆起当初的那份心情.可惜自从接触
字符艺术以来,就很少用诗词的头脑想问题了..
发展
2002年8月,我很清楚的记得这个日子.因为这是我第一次比较
正式的接触字符的时候.虽然以前也喜欢画些东西,可是终归只
是停留在*[31m这样的阶段.
接触字符艺术其实也是一个偶然,是和一个朋友暗中较劲的时候
才来的这个版,因为我觉得,我肯定能画出比她更漂亮的图画来.
呵呵,年少轻狂,现在想想也觉得有点好笑.如果不是这样,我现在
估计还是会待在classicalpoem写我的诗词.
我用一个小时了解各种画图软件,三天的时间看别人的作品,三天
之后,就有了我的处女作,可惜的是,现在已经记不得是什么东西
了.不过现在大家看到的大部分作品,都是9月份以后作的.8月份的
时候百事缠身,唯一喜欢的就是那幅动画签名档了,我用了近三天
的时间才完成的...
中期
我想现在应该属于中期把.我一直不是很喜欢做斑竹,可是现在却是
4个版的斑竹,自己想想都觉得矛盾.也许双鱼座天生就是一个矛盾
的星座,我总是做一些自己都不知道为什么会做的事情.
弃诗词而转字符艺术以后,我曾经问过我很admire的banggg,这样的
转变到底是对还是错,bang说,不管怎么样,这些画总是比我一个人
写那些酸酸的诗词好.呵呵,也许是bang的这句话,让我决定了今后
面对这些方块三角,而不是词牌和韵脚了.
学字符以后的两个月以来,我想我面对它们的时候,已经少了当初的
那种让人费解的狂热,多了一种平静.毕竟,我还是更喜欢美丽的现
实世界的,毕竟,我还是更喜欢大自然那些会动的花草虫鱼,而不是
用鼠标键盘构造的虚拟世界.
后期
尾声
后期和尾声就留给我退出的时候写吧,呵呵
id是死的,人是活的,可是每一个死的id后面,都有一个活生生的人
每一个id,都是人的精神体现. --------bang
我总是弄不清楚,id和我之间的关系.
我想我可以平静勇敢的面对人生,却每每不惜让我心爱的id死去,
以为这样就可以把所有的曾经带走,以为这样,就不再有人知道
我的过去,就不再会回忆曾经走过的路.
其实我错了,这样的足迹永远也抹不掉,因为它留在朋友们的心里
也刻在我的心里...
birth
Since I came into contact with the Internet in March 2001, problem is actually my nth ID.
At that time, I had just finished taking the GT exam. I was confused about my future and dissatisfied with the current situation, which made me think that I
It has many shortcomings, many shortcomings, and many unresolved problems.
I actually hope that one day I will be able to see myself clearly and be able to see the future
Holding it in hand can solve existing problems. Therefore, such an ID can
was born.
growing up
The naming of id was originally hoped to solve its own problems. But later it gradually evolved.
It becomes about solving other people's problems and one's own problems. Haha, things always
It has two sides.
At the beginning, I liked the classicpoem version. Of course it was just misty.
In mapler's words, I always like to hide alone in a corner of the laboratory
In it, I write some unknown sour poems. On the surface I am very realistic, but deep down I am
I don’t have any practical ideas. I like to arm myself and take unhappy things away
Keep it in your heart, take it out when you have free time, and taste it bit by bit...but you can't hide it.
It's the vague sadness in the poems. I put my mood, ambition, and self
Written in my poems, I believe that those who can truly understand them are the ones who understand me
The poem expresses the ambition and conveys the emotion. More than 300 days and nights are integrated into nearly 100 poems.
Now every time I see them, I can recall the feeling I had at the time. Unfortunately, since I came into contact with them,
Since the advent of character art, we have rarely used a poetic mind to think about problems.
develop
August 2002, I remember this date very clearly because it was the first time I compared
When I came into contact with characters formally. Although I also liked to draw some things before, in the end I only
It is stuck at the stage of *[31m.
In fact, I came into contact with character art by accident, when I was secretly competing with a friend.
I just came up with this version because I think I can definitely draw more beautiful pictures than hers.
Haha, I was young and frivolous, and now I think it’s a bit funny. If it weren’t for this, I would now
I will probably stay at ClassicalPoem and write my poems.
I spent one hour learning about various drawing software, three days looking at other people’s works, and three days
After that, there was my debut novel. Unfortunately, I can’t remember what it is now.
. But most of the works you see now were made after September. The ones in August
I was obsessed with Pepsi at that time, and the only thing I liked was the animated signature file. I used it for nearly three days.
It took a while to complete...
medium term
I think now is the mid-term period. I have never really liked being a mosaic, but now I am.
There are 4 versions of Bamboo. I feel contradictory when I think about it. Maybe Pisces is born with a contradiction.
According to my zodiac sign, I always do things I don’t know why I do them.
After I gave up poetry and turned to character art, I once asked Banggg, whom I admire very much, like this
Is the transformation right or wrong? Bang said, no matter what, these paintings are always better than me alone
It’s good to write those sour poems. Haha, maybe it was Bang’s words that made me decide the future
Face these squares and triangles instead of word cards and rhymes.
In the two months since I learned characters, I think when I face them, I have lost the original enthusiasm.
That kind of incomprehensible fanaticism has a kind of calmness. After all, I still prefer beautiful things.
In the real world, after all, I still prefer those moving flowers, plants, insects, and fish in nature rather than
A virtual world constructed with mouse and keyboard.
later stage
end
I’ll leave the post and epilogue to be written when I quit, haha
IDs are dead and people are alive, but behind every dead ID, there is a living person.
Every ID is the embodiment of human spirit. bang
I always can't figure out the relationship between id and me.
I think I can face life calmly and bravely, but I always let my beloved ID die.
I thought that this way I could take away all my past, I thought that this way, no one would know about it anymore
My past will no longer recall the path I have taken.
Actually, I was wrong. Such footprints can never be erased because they remain in the hearts of my friends.
Also engraved in my heart...