大三是面临抉择的时候,姚旺辞去了周报社的工作,开始考虑毕业后的出路。出国
、读研还是找工作,不论选择哪条路,现在都该做些准备了。大二没事就和贾超混在一
起打游戏,考试完全靠突击,几年来虽然没有挂科,但把成绩单寄到国外去,他觉得也
够给中国人丢脸的。但出国似乎是最好的选择,系里要出去的人很多,秦毅报了新东方G
RE的寒假班,拉姚旺陪读,他也就答应了。
这一学期姚旺静了静心,恢复了跑步锻炼和早睡早起的习惯,大部分的课都开始去
听,期中考试成绩出现起色。圣诞节前,他心情不错,打算送份特别的礼物给袁芳。在
网上挑来拣去,周后在一个网络花店订了一束鲜花,女孩子都该喜欢花吧。起初他想送
玫瑰,但肯定不能讨好,反而会让人家别扭。还是送郁金香吧,曾听她说起过喜欢这花
,花期也合适。于是他提前一个星期下了订单,指定圣诞夜送到袁芳的宿舍。姚旺本指
望能感动袁芳一下,可她后来对于这束花只字未提过,他也没好意思再问起。
又到了寒假,大学迎来了它的冬眠期,仅有几个活跃的细胞还在不懈地跳动着,姚
旺和秦毅就是其中的两个。他们在新东方见识到了另一种课堂,听着老师们风趣幽默的
神侃,姚旺一改上课睡觉的陋习,激起了出国的斗志。过年就放4天假,年初三就赶回来
继续上课了。下火车正赶上一场雨,把他的热情也浇得湿淋淋的。他一直觉得联大这里
的冬天太不像样,极少见雪,只有淅淅沥沥的冷雨,一下起来就不停。对着这种天气,
就像对着一个不停哭泣的陌生女子,让人心乱而无奈。课程结束的那天,正好是情人节
,姚旺以朋友的口吻给袁芳寄去一张电子贺卡,祝她早日找到真爱。其实这并不是他的
本意,只是为了让她在情人节打开邮箱时,能够想起自己。袁芳对这张贺卡再次报以了
沉默。开始他有点怪袁芳的绝情,后来他渐渐理解她,当初自己对卫萱不也是这样做的
吗?对多情者做出哪怕一点点的回应,都会鼓励其想入非非,不肯罢手。只有冷酷到底
,才能使其清醒地摆正自己的位置。被冷漠打击得多了,姚旺从此没再做过什么出格的
举动。
曾听说过第四种情感的说法,那是一种有别于友情、爱情和亲情的特殊情谊,发源
于爱情,止乎于友情,比友情更近,离爱情稍远。姚旺觉得自己对袁芳的感情可以归为
这一类,虽然袁芳对他并不如此,而且他也不是对友情和爱情的主动舍弃,而是被逼进
爱与喜欢的的夹缝中,只能不情愿地接受。求相爱而不得,做朋友而不甘,陷入这样尴
尬的境地,就拿第四种情感阿Q下自己吧。
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In his junior year, he was faced with a choice. Yao Wang quit his job at the weekly newspaper and began to think about his future after graduation, going abroad.
Go to graduate school or find a job. No matter which path you choose, you should make some preparations now. In my sophomore year, I hung out with Jia Chao.
He started playing games and relied entirely on surprise exams. Although he had not failed a class in the past few years, he felt that it would be inappropriate to send his transcripts abroad.
It's enough to embarrass the Chinese people, but going abroad seems to be the best choice. There are many people in the department who want to leave. Qin Yi signed up for New Oriental G
RE's winter vacation class asked Yao Wang to accompany him and he agreed.
This semester, Yao Wang calmed down and resumed the habit of running, going to bed early and getting up early, and started attending most of his classes.
Listen, his midterm exam results have improved. Before Christmas, he was in a good mood and planned to give Yuan Fang a special gift.
After picking and choosing online, Zhou Hou ordered a bouquet of flowers from an online flower shop. Girls must like flowers. At first, he wanted to send them as gifts.
Roses, but they definitely won’t please her. Instead, they’ll make her feel awkward. It’s better to give her tulips. I once heard her say that she likes this flower.
The flowering period was also suitable, so he placed the order a week in advance and designated it to be delivered to Yuan Fang's dormitory on Christmas Eve. Yao Wang originally meant
He hoped to impress Yuan Fang, but she never mentioned a word about the bouquet of flowers and he was embarrassed to ask again.
Winter vacation is here again, and the university has ushered in its hibernation period. Only a few active cells are still beating relentlessly. Yao
Wang and Qin Yi were two of them. They saw a different kind of classroom at New Oriental, listening to the teachers’ humorous lectures.
Shenkan: Yao Wang changed his bad habit of sleeping in class and aroused his fighting spirit to go abroad. He took 4 days off during the Chinese New Year and rushed back on the third day of the new year.
Class continued. When he got off the train, it rained, which dampened his enthusiasm. He always felt that the United Nations General Assembly was here.
The winter here is so unpleasant. There is very little snow. There is only a patter of cold rain that doesn’t stop as soon as I wake up. Faced with this kind of weather
It's like facing a strange woman who keeps crying. It makes people feel confused and helpless. The day the course ends happens to be Valentine's Day.
Yao Wang sent an electronic greeting card to Yuan Fang as a friend, wishing her to find true love soon. In fact, it was not his.
The original intention was just to remind her of herself when she opened the mailbox on Valentine's Day. Yuan Fang responded again to this greeting card.
Silence. At first, he was a little bit blamed for Yuan Fang's unfeeling. Later, he gradually understood her. Didn't he do the same to Wei Xuan at the beginning?
Even the slightest response to an amorous person will encourage him to have wild dreams and refuse to give up, and he will only be ruthless to the end.
Only in this way can he clearly understand his position. He was hit hard by the indifference. Yao Wang has never done anything out of the ordinary since then.
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I have heard about the fourth emotion. It is a special kind of friendship that is different from friendship, love and family affection. Its origins
In love, only in friendship, closer than friendship, slightly further from love. Yao Wang feels that his feelings for Yuan Fang can be classified as
Although Yuan Fang didn't treat him like this, and he didn't give up on friendship and love on his own initiative, he was forced into this category.
Caught between love and liking, I can only reluctantly accept it. I ask for love but can't get it, and I can't be friends. I am trapped in this awkward situation.
In an awkward situation, let’s use the fourth emotion, Ah Q, to put yourself in trouble
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