正如前辈们总结的那样,没有一定要出国的坚定信念,最终很难拿到offer。秦毅
是能够对自己发狠的人,起早贪黑地地做模拟题,啃红宝书,眼睛都差点憋成红的。相
比之下,姚旺缺乏背水一战的决心,在国内与国外之间摇摆不定,备考进度比秦毅慢了
许多。杨鹏老师十七天做完的事情,他用了十七个星期。4月份机考作文没压中题,6月
份的general也是仓惶上阵,逻辑和阅读都没能做完。考完后心里就凉了,成绩很难达到
出国申请的最低要求,再想想自己可怜的GPA,出国无望了。
暑假回到家,他不知该怎么和家人交待,心里他特别难受。回想大学三年,真有点
浑浑噩噩,不堪回首。从前被亲戚们称赞为理性的他,一度深陷在感情里难以自拔,在
大学打游戏的时间比上课的时间还要多,这还是高中时那个争强好胜的姚旺吗?对于袁
芳,他多次问自己,真的那么爱袁芳本人吗?真的了解她吗,又爱她的什么呢?一直以
来,自己不过是在爱着一个假想的人罢了。始终放不下的,是袁芳吗?更可能是自己的
那份感情吧。这样下去已经毫无意义,不如洗心革面,为那段无果的单相思画上句号。
姚旺找出袁芳寄来的所有书信,一共12封,逐字逐句地从头读到尾,无限感慨,又上心
头。这是最后一次了,他用了很多胶水,将这些信重新封好,再不能完整地打开了。处
理好后,全部压在柜子里的书堆下面。保存在电子信箱里那些来自袁芳的邮件,他曾读
过许多遍,见字思人,读罢伤心。虽有些不舍,但最终还是全部选定后按下了删除键。
能够与她相遇,是最大的幸福;不能与她相爱,是最长的痛苦;而放弃对她的爱,则是
最最无奈的选择。这些萦怀心事陪了他太久,给过他不断追求的希望,也给了他痛彻灵
魂的悲伤。就此封藏吧,再不要去碰触,多年之后,或许深情的种子真能开出释然的花
朵,吐露别样的芬芳。面对缺失了昔日的女神的心灵神殿,他需要为自己的“后袁芳时
代”找到新的信仰。
暑假在家过了一个星期,姚旺就回到学校。在导师的推荐下,参加了系里的研究生
保送面试,并成功通过考核,毕业后可以继续在联大攻读博士学位。他主动去导师所在
的实验室帮工,开始熟悉科研工作。那时候,同寝室的秦毅忙着出国申请,贾超则四处
面试找工作,姚旺属于最早找好归宿的一批人,可以安心地等着毕业了。
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As the seniors have concluded, without a firm belief that you must go abroad, it will be difficult to get an offer in the end. Qin Yi
He is a person who can be cruel to himself. He wakes up early and stays late at night to do simulation questions. He chews on the red book and his eyes almost turn red from holding back.
In contrast, Yao Wang lacked the determination to fight back and wavered between domestic and foreign countries. His preparation for the exam was slower than Qin Yi's.
Many things that Teacher Yang Peng completed in 17 days took him 17 weeks. In April, the computer-based test essay failed to pass the test in June.
I also rushed into the general exam. I couldn’t finish the logic and reading. I felt bad after finishing the exam. It was difficult to achieve the results.
The minimum requirements for applying abroad. Think about your poor GPA. There is no hope of going abroad.
When he returned home during the summer vacation, he didn't know how to explain it to his family. He felt very uncomfortable. Looking back on his three years in college, it was really a bit strange.
He was confused and couldn't bear to look back. He was once praised as rational by his relatives, but he was once deeply trapped in emotions and couldn't extricate himself.
I spend more time playing games than attending classes in college. Is this still the competitive Yao Wang from high school? For Yuan
Fang. He asked himself many times, did he really love Yuan Fang that much? Do he really understand her? What did he love about her? He always thought
Come on, I'm just in love with an imaginary person. Is it Yuan Fang that I can't let go of? It's more likely to be my own.
That relationship is meaningless if it goes on like this. It's better to change your mind and put an end to that fruitless unrequited love.
Yao Wang found all the letters sent by Yuan Fang. There were 12 letters in total. He read them from beginning to end word by word. He was filled with emotion and heart.
Head, this was the last time. He used a lot of glue to reseal the letters. They could no longer be opened completely.
After sorting it out, he put it all under the pile of books in the cabinet and saved the emails from Yuan Fang in the e-mail box that he had read.
I read it many times and missed the person when I read it. I felt sad after reading it. Although I was a little reluctant to let it go, I finally selected them all and pressed the delete button.
Being able to meet her is the greatest happiness; not being able to fall in love with her is the longest pain; and giving up love for her is the greatest pain.
The most helpless choice. These lingering thoughts have been with him for too long. They have given him hope that he can continue to pursue, and they have also given him pain.
Seal the sorrow of the soul and never touch it again. Years later, maybe the seeds of affection can really bloom into flowers of relief.
The flowers reveal a different kind of fragrance. Facing the temple of the soul that lacks the former goddess, he needs to prepare for his own Hou Yuan Fangshi.
Find a new faith
After spending a week at home during the summer vacation, Yao Wang returned to school. Under the recommendation of his tutor, he joined the postgraduate program in the department.
He was recommended for an interview and successfully passed the assessment. After graduation, he can continue to study for a doctoral degree at the United Nations University. He took the initiative to go to the supervisor's place.
As a laboratory helper, I began to get familiar with scientific research work. At that time, Qin Yi, who was in the same dormitory, was busy applying to go abroad, while Jia Chao was looking around.
Interviewing and looking for a job. Yao Wang is among the first batch of people to find a good home. He can wait for graduation with peace of mind.
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