放假回家后,姚旺迎来了他的20周岁生日,收到的唯一一份礼物是来自学校的成绩
单,上面赫然印着他的第一个“D”。整个寒假他的心情都很糟,一是为自己的学业担忧
,一是觉得和袁芳的感情可能就这样草草收场了。他对自己非常的不满,由于缺乏自信
和勇气,不知在等待中错过了多少机会,在等待中蹉跎了多少光阴。这样下去只会让自
己越来越痛苦,做个了断吧,姚旺决定最后一搏,寒假返校后立即给袁芳写了一份表白
信:
“芳:
先道声节日愉快!
心中有一种感情,伴随了我十余年,就如同一盏清茗,品起来苦涩与醇香相伴相生
。说出来,抑或让它成为仅属于自己的秘密,两者间难以抉择,令人备受煎熬。几经犹
豫,我还是提起了笔。痴情总被人笑,但请不要笑我哟。
可能由于看了太多的爱情故事,人们总喜欢也把自己设计为主角,在脑海里臆想出
一个童话。我亦如是。自从小时候见到那位女孩后(记不清是不是第一眼),内心就产
生了一种特殊的好感。她与众不同,我对美的理解,只她一人,就全概括了。对那女孩
的欣赏竟强烈得令我惶恐。想与她接近却处处躲避,想跟她交谈又有口难言。她是那样
的美,而我对她的了解又那样的少,这很自然地使我将她理想化,幻化成那时一位出现
在我生命中的至纯至美的女神。其实,别怪我说得太冒犯,那位女孩,她就是袁芳你了
。
升入中学,只能偶尔在校园里与你相遇。看到你的机会少了。却让我更加珍惜。每
每听到你的名字或望见你的身影,都让我莫名地感动。明眸皓齿、蝶影花容,你就想一
阵清风、一缕阳光,给我的生活增添了无尽的色彩。无需太多,一次难得的邂逅,尽管
默默无语,甚至一个眼神也不曾留下,却已是对我的支持和鼓励,让我心怀感激。
跨进大学后,我小心翼翼地寄出了给你的信,在期待与不安中挣扎了几天。终于,
终于盼到了你的第一封信。我难以形容当时的激动,不要怀疑,那时它对我来讲,远比
大学录取通知书还来的重要!开始与你通信,就像喔生命中一次奇迹般的转变。
几年过客无言,几年来去匆匆,但点点滴滴,只字片语,似有灵犀,尽在心中。这
就是爱情?这就是初恋?更可能是我痴心妄想的单相思吧...我不知道。我只觉得,你是
我所见过的最美丽的女孩,我非常非常喜欢你,只有你,让我魂牵梦萦,无法忘记。
......
姑娘容禀,本人所犯轻浮无礼之罪,今已悉数招供。原拟一生守口如瓶,以求避过
惩戒,得个清名。谁想天网恢恢,叫我一日三思吾过,内心不得安宁。此中苦处,着实
难堪。遂今日出来自首,盼能坦白从宽。此番来信,种种结果我皆曾料想,唯一不愿者
,是给姑娘出了难题,添了烦恼。小生明白,人人心中皆有佳偶,若无缘,直言相告,
万勿顾虑犯难。呵呵呵,姑娘放心,旺虽不才,却也是晓情理、知进退之人。能倾诉心
中之言,已了心愿,更无奢求。
春日咋暖还寒,注意防病。学期伊始,保重身体,认真学习吧!
此致
敬礼!
旺
2003.2.17”
姚旺自己心里清楚,他远没有信中写的那么想得开,只不过想给自己留个退路,做
不成伴侣也还能留住友谊。寄出这封信后,他和贾超去小饭馆里喝了点酒,那天他们聊
了很多,姚旺尽情地宣泄着。他终于从多年的压抑中解脱出来,余下的,就是等待命运
的宣判。
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After returning home from vacation, Yao Wang celebrated his 20th birthday. The only gift he received was his school results.
His first D was clearly printed on the slip. He was in a bad mood throughout the winter vacation. First, he was worried about his studies.
First, he felt that his relationship with Yuan Fang might have ended hastily like this. He was very dissatisfied with himself due to lack of self-confidence.
and courage. I don’t know how many opportunities I have missed while waiting. How much time I have wasted while waiting. If this continues, I will only let myself suffer.
He was getting more and more painful and wanted to end it. Yao Wang decided to give it a last try and immediately wrote a confession to Yuan Fang after returning to school from winter vacation.
letter
Fang
Happy holidays first
There is a feeling in my heart that has been with me for more than ten years. It is like a cup of clear tea. It tastes bitter and mellow.
Say it or let it be a secret that only belongs to you. It is difficult to choose between the two. It is very painful. I have been thinking about it for many times.
Yu, I still picked up the pen. People always laugh at infatuation, but please don’t laugh at me.
Maybe because they have read too many love stories, people always like to design themselves as the protagonists and imagine them in their minds.
A fairy tale, the same is true for me. Ever since I saw that girl when I was a child, I can’t remember if it made me cry in my heart at the first sight.
I have a special affection for her. She is different. My understanding of beauty is all summed up by her alone. To that girl
My admiration for her is so strong that it scares me. I want to get close to her, but I avoid her everywhere. I want to talk to her, but I can’t speak. She’s like that
The beauty of her and the fact that I knew so little about her naturally led me to idealize her and transform her into a person who appeared at that time.
The most pure and beautiful goddess in my life. Actually, don’t blame me for being too offensive. That girl is you Yuan Fang.
After entering middle school, I can only meet you occasionally on campus. There are fewer opportunities to see you, but it makes me cherish every moment more.
Every time I hear your name or see your figure, I am inexplicably moved. With your bright eyes and white teeth, your butterfly shadow and your beautiful face, you just think about it.
A breeze and a ray of sunshine add endless colors to my life. It doesn’t take much. It’s a rare encounter. Although
Silent and silent, not even a glance was left behind, but it already gave me support and encouragement, which made me feel grateful.
After entering college, I carefully mailed the letter to you. After struggling with anticipation and uneasiness for a few days, I finally
I finally looked forward to your first letter. I can’t describe the excitement I felt at that time. Do not doubt that it was far more important to me than
It’s important that the college acceptance letter comes again. I’ll start communicating with you. It’s like a miraculous change in my life.
A few years pass by without words, a few years come and go in a hurry, but bit by bit, every word and phrase seems to be connected, all in my heart.
It’s love. This is first love. It’s more likely my wishful thinking and unrequited love... I don’t know. I just think you are
The most beautiful girl I have ever seen. I like you very, very much. Only you make me dream and cannot forget you.
...
Miss Rong, I have confessed all the crimes of frivolity and rudeness I committed. I originally planned to keep it secret for the rest of my life in order to avoid it.
Punishment, a clear name, who wants the sky net to be restored? Make me think twice about my mistakes every day, and I can't have peace of mind. The pain in this is real.
Embarrassed, I came out to surrender today, hoping to be frank and lenient. I have expected all kinds of consequences in this letter. The only one who didn't want to be.
It has caused problems and troubles for the girl. Xiaosheng understands that everyone has a sweetheart in their heart. If there is no chance, just tell them directly.
Don't worry about getting into trouble. Hahaha, don't worry, girl. Although Wang is not talented, he is also sensible. People who know how to advance and retreat can express their feelings.
Zhongzhiyan has fulfilled his wish and has no more extravagant wishes.
Is it warm or cold in spring? Pay attention to disease prevention. It’s the beginning of the semester. Take care of yourself and study hard.
Sincerely
salute
prosperous
2003.2.17
Yao Wang knew in his heart that he was far less open-minded than what he wrote in the letter. He just wanted to leave a way out for himself.
Even if they don't become friends, they can still maintain friendship. After sending this letter, he and Jia Chao went to a small restaurant to have some drinks. They talked that day.
After learning a lot, Yao Wang vented to his heart's content. He was finally freed from years of depression. The rest is to wait for his fate.
the verdict
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