After calming down, Yao Wang began to think about how to reply to the letter. It would really be over if he was taller and more handsome. I will definitely not give up just like that, but people often say that emotional matters cannot be forced. Sincerity leads to gold and stone. The reason for opening up is not feasible only in the relationship. If Yuan Fang rejects him because of his appearance, he will continue to pester her. If it is clear, it may arouse greater disgust. On the one hand, Yao Wang lacks self-confidence, and on the other hand, he is extremely self-esteem and does not want to be noticed. He had to stalk him. Since Yuan Fang said she wanted to be friends with him for life, just follow her words. Yao Wang quickly wrote a reply. I promised to just be friends from now on. At the same time, I wrote a poem and posted it on my bedside to encourage myself. I'm determined Love is a word that cannot be discussed Dreams fade away like bubbles Feihong is hard to return After Yao Wang was rejected, the relationship between the two became subtle, and it coincided with SARS causing a great panic across the country. Since then, Yao Wang has never received a handwritten letter from Yuan Fang. The contact between the two has been replaced by email and QQ. Although he promised to Yuan Fang treats him as an ordinary friend, but how can Yao Wang do it? He is just lying to himself. On the one hand, he tries his best to abide by Keeping her duty as a friend, on the one hand, it is really difficult to let her go. Her words often reveal reluctance and special concern. Yuan Fang usually responds in two ways, either with a smile or with silence. Yao Wang often waits for her on QQ. I went online, but every time I couldn't chat for more than a few words, she just said she had something to do and typed out in a hurry. 88 Later, she went online less and less. Yao Wang speculated that Yuan Fang must be deliberately alienating herself to keep her distance from a good friend, or she really regarded herself as Are you a friend? Or someone who needs to be comforted? Yao Wang once saw such a post: 22 of the most commonly used lies by girls. Words 1. Let’s just be friends. In fact, you still have value that can be used. 2. I think I’m really not suitable. You, I don’t like you at all. 3. I don’t want to have a boyfriend for the time being. Step aside. You are not up to my standard of handsome guy. Half... He sensitively figured out whether Yuan Fang was also lying to him, but he was still stupidly unaware of it. Afterwards, for every sentence Yuan Fang sent, Yao Wang tried his best to guess the meaning behind the words, but at the same time, he also He feels that he should not doubt Yuan Fang's sincerity. He has been in a conflict between suspicion and self-blame for a long time. Yao Wang doesn't know how to continue like this. How long can their friendship last? Sometimes he really wants to ask someone to punch her a few times so that he can wake up and stop being crazy or cruel and forget about her completely. Start a new life, but over the years, his longing for Yuan Fang has been deeply rooted in his heart. How could he forget the word "?" Recently, he dreamed of Yuan Fang many times, dreamed of meeting her, dreamed of holding her hand, dreamed of walking side by side on the road... Come to think of it, he dreamed of Yuan Fang. It's a bit strange. At this age, Yao Wang already has some sexual fantasies occasionally, but only for Yuan Fang, he has never done anything dirty. Dirty thoughts, she has become a goddess in her subconscious, sacred and inviolable. Since she cannot forget, she has become a goddess that cannot be changed. Just try to face the facts, live your life well, and bless her, just like blessing an ordinary beautiful friend. Yao Wang changed the poem on the bedside to another one The past is gone like dust and smoke I miss you so much that I will never return it. How can I wander around in vain to reminisce? Hanging up the sails with a long roar . J 9 Friends 9 J [estrangement] < [guess]